There is a certain peace and freedom that comes from knowing that no one checks this site anymore. There’s still a bunch of shit that would be inappropriate to communicate here, but it still feels good (a small blessing in this time for me) to know that I can express myself unhindered by concern over who might read this, and what they might think or feel.
I LOVE this woman, I miss her, despite all reason I still want to marry her. I’ve made plenty of mistakes and wish that she would give me the chance to correct them. But, sadly, desperately so in fact, it seems that will never happen.