Verbose Meander Through The Past

Three women, three stories, then a meandering examination that goes basically nowhere. Summer 1991 When I was a couple months shy of turning 13 I met a girl named Nicole. I’d had “girlfriends” before I met her, girls for whom I had little more than the ill-defined flush of being slightly more than friends with, …

Late Night Stranger

A couple of years ago, around the middle of the Covid lockdown, I went for a drive to rid myself of a restless feeling of boredom. I made my way up into Oregon because it’s pretty and, when faced with the choice of heading North or South, North appealed more. I pulled into Gold Beach …

Not gonna be pleased

This post is for you, whoever you are. It's going to be weird, and probably bother you, but I've got to say it. I realize complaints in regards to readership of a public blog, especially one my compatriot and I have tried our best to advertise, are foolish but needs must occasionally. A few people …

So, this week sucked for me. I shouldn't say this but, fuck it, it's true. I'll start off with a simple list of exactly what happened this week, then I'll explain why this week sucked because of all of that. 1. I woke up Monday morning in fucking AGONY. 2. Found out that I needed …

I Gotta Be Me

Recently, as in for the last 87 days, I've had a lot of people give me advice about a lot of things. Don't do this, do that sort of stuff. None of which has been taken by me. Not because I'm arogant, though some may disagree, but because I know who I am and what …

I am going to endeavor to make this my last post on the subject of my break up with my ex-fiancé. I won't make any promises because circumstances have shown me promises are foolish sometimes. They're verbal contracts that have no remedy when broken, at least none of the ones I've ever made. But I …

Is hope ever foolish? I've asked myself this question a lot, several times a day actually, over the last 79 days. I've come down on both sides of this question equally and that drives me crazy. I know that a satisfactory answer will probably never come unless either answer is proven true. I'll know it …

Interview and Housing problem

So, I have an interview this coming tuesday for a new job. If I get it, which based on the conversation I had with the HR woman seems highly possible, I will be making more than I have in a long time. I'm looking forward to both the interview and, if I get it, the …

One of the more difficult aspects of a break up of the kind I've experienced is the missing of the other person. When it's not an occurance that you either wanted or needed the consequences are drastic and terrible. That's in no way to say that the other person doesn't miss you as well, it's …

“With every breath I’m tasting your kiss”

I must start out by stating the obvious: I am an enormous music snob. I'm sure it's needlessly so, especially for someone who loves music as much as I do, but it is unfortunately true. I have very specific criteria by which I judge anything I hear. This isn't unusual, everyone has their own criteria, …